Dear Diary I Promist Never to Let Another Man Play Me

I'm using blogs as my personal diary tonight.
This is a catch 22 situation so part of me is
pissed at myself and I don't like myself for
allowing some man to play me for a fool.I guess its the "I" vs "Me" and I don't like me right now.

About a year ago I ran into a man asking for directions.I had this really weird magnetic
attraction to him. "I'm a sucker for a deep voice, a tan and a foot and a few inches taller than myself.He seemed to sort of vanish and called me a few months later asking if I would like to go to dinner so we did.I learned about him and found him to be a very interesting guy.We had much in common.
Enjoyed the same music,traveling,etc.

At the evenings end I had no idea that the date was
suppose to be on a provider basis.This was a sudden phone call and no mention of "services" and I felt uncomfortable with having to discuss an hour nightcap in his car after dinner,while dropping me off at home and then driving to his ATM.It was just a friendly dinner date,as he happen to be in my area that night when he called he was really still working.I had very little notice so I stepped out to "get to know him". nairobi tamu had no plans on a "get to do him" MY FAULT!

We stayed in touch periodically and connectred again at another get together and he seems quite interested, yet never communicated in the way we communicate in the business.You know... Hi I'd like to book a couple of hours etc.One time I was at a party and he called me because he had a boring time
at a car show he was at and wanted to know the address of where the get together was to come over.I got the voice mail too late though as I never heard my cell.

He is a great conversationalist,and upon visiting his place I was stunned as to how much more I had in common with him.His decor was the same style as mine,very similar furniture,colors and even my living room colors were complimentary to his.The bedroom was too spot on and I felt like I was in my own bed.Same color sheets same fabric.
Same color bed throw.Same style bed!

I actually thought he was interested in something
outside of the hobby with the communication as it was especially,when he located me on a site called plaxo.I still wonder what that was all about its not specefically industry related its more of a friendly network of friends.I wasn't looking for anything and I still want to knw how he found me on there he isn't on any of my friends lists on that site.

His emails are more than just the typical business they seem deep.Heartfelt using words like darling, sexy , sweety,baby etc.Hes quite the flirt and though I jokingly said " oh you say that to all the girls" he insisted I was wrong.Insisting on helping me move that I was asked to "keep on him about it" I hired my own movers which I really did plan on anyway.I fell into a spiral downfall.

I didn't really meet him as a provider, we just happen to be going to the same place at the same time.He vanished even then so I didn't really get a chance to get to know him until we went to dinner
last winter and more recently with much flirtation
comming from him to catagorise it as business.I went to Vegas and this man was on my mind. I sent him a card and he seemed so happy to hear from me.

He is full of compliments and shares his enjoyment when time is spent with me and says things that would lead one to believe there is a common interest.Well long story short,he has not replied to email, voice mail or text.I'd like to be compensated for a part of the time we spent together and keep it on good terms.

I don't like people playing with emotions.We are in a very sensetive business and to lead someone on is not cool.I know you read here so if you don't mind, I would appreciate closing my business with you dear.Your refusal to pick up or reply whatsoever is telling me you like freebies.Telling me the jokes on me.This will make me very angry and I will wind up adding you to the buzz zone,DZ411 and those sites where we women discuss with one another who not to see.

I probably would have considered retiring had I played into your bullshit any longer.I enjoyed being with you that much while you played me.I finally snapped out of it but its treatment like this that allows for a firm decesion to make dating a business.I'm not chasing you for a relationship I just really enjoyed your company as you seemed to enjoy mine.But I woke up and I'd have to treat this as a business since you are a hobbyist( I think) and I am a provider.I'm very upset with you too right now but more upset with ME .Yet you're ignoring your responsibility.I never have to ASK for compensation from anyone else.Why should I have to with you?

Thank you for your consideration.And I hope you can govern yourself accordingly because this is a
business and you know that you owe,and if money is not object as you stated on one occasion,then
then you should have no issue with this.You didn't pay me to go away.You led me on.I'm mailing you a bill.I'm not some pick up in a bar I'm a provider and you know you intentionally "forgot" twice now.Yes readers Angela was a fool twice for someone.Silly crazy me I let myself open up with someone who had no intentions of keeping it business nor keeping it real.Men do no tseem like men when they play silly headgames just as much as men seem less masculine who gossip.I wonder if your
regular provider knows what you do when not seeing
her?

So lets be done with this so that we can step back to the other side of our lines where we
belong.I'm not interested in anymore headgames.
You had your good time manipulating me,you had your true GFE and its over.The show is over and now it's time to close this and settle up.You're a good negotiator babe.A good talker.Now will you take care of your business please? I'm mad at myself for not keeping this as it should have been kept.